who would have thought

who would have thought that i'd ever be the one missing what i never thought i would.  i miss the slushy snow, melting away by the rain on the sides of the street.  i used to hate the way it'd come down and then wash away the next day, but today i miss it.  i never thought i'd miss the chaos, getting ready to have everyone over for christmas eve.  right now, i even miss all the pines falling off the christmas tree. i miss the music blaring from the computer room; mariah carey, the grinch and little cindy loo who.  i'll miss my grandma's home cooking when christmas day rolls around.  this year i won't get my chocolate letter or sweet little poem.  i'll miss christmas morning with my family around the fire.  i'll miss their laughter, bickering quarrels and smart little remarks.  i'll miss it.