i thought i knew back then.

looking back i can remember.  i remember every 11:11.  i remember closing my eyes  - i remember every wish.  i remember my dreams and trying to make them a reality.  i remember realizing the pieces that had fallen apart were slowly falling together.  i remember getting everything i thought i wanted.  i realized i knew never what i needed.  i remember smiling.  i remember feeling satisfied, and other days feeling not.  i remember breaking down.  i remember crying and i remember the pain.  i remember the mean words.  but more than that l remember the love.  i remember those moments of weakness.  i know now that i'm strong.  i remember where i've been because it's brought me to where i am now.  i know that i can do it, but only because i remember giving up hope.  i remember crying.  i remember feeling like i'd fallen apart.  most of all, i remember believing.   i remember praying.  i remember those tears of joy.  i remember salvation.  i remember redemption.  i remember you. i remember the hope i found.  i remember letting go of the past. i still remember.  

the epitome of beauty